Does not Dionysius seem to have made it sufficiently clear that there can be nothing happy for the person over whom some fear always looms?
I had a full blown panic attack. It had been a long time since that happened. Years probably. I have moments where my heart races or where I feel walls closing in. I haven't had to stop, breathe, leave where I was in a long time. I haven't had to take a Xanax in quite a while. I've taken them preemptively, to prevent them. I guess that is needing them. I try not to rely on them.
This was full blown, my face was numb. I had to leave a public place. I was texting a wonderful friend who talked me through everything. Thank you.
I think it's all catching up. We don't have family support. We have friends, but I don't want to expose too much of her story if she isn't ready. On the other hand we need our support system to help watch her when she isn't around us. How many sides does that sword have?
This weekend calls for baking and cooking. These, along with writing, are my outlets. I have a few freelance projects that are due. I need the therapy. Cookies will be piling up here, maybe breads. Yes, it's therapeutic. I wish I could send all of you treats.
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Try doing some research on colloidal gold and colloidal zinc. Colloidal zinc deficiency is linked to anorexia and leaves food tasteless and sometimes unpleasant. Treatment of Anorexia with colloidal zinc has had some excellent results. Also colloidal gold calms the overactive mind and is used to correct eating disorders amongst many other things. It would be worth researching this a little. Colloids are trace amount of nano atomic sized particles of metals suspended in distilled water through an electrolysis process, tap water is more harmful. The particles are undetectable using a regular microscope. They can be purchased online or sometimes stocked at local health food stores.
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