The little things.

I don't care if it hurts

I want to have control

I want a perfect body

I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice

When I'm not around

Still no test results and our doctor is out of the office on Thursdays. Ugh.

Another day down, but it was a successful one. She ate today without pushing and without a fight. I realize that we'll have more bad days than good days, but I relish the good. 

I had a wonderful talk tonight with a friend. She's known her since she was four. She can't believe all this is going on. Neither can I, but it is. She's the first person I let in that's here, in my life. I don't want to share until we know details of treatment. Also, it's her life and we're at the point where she has the call on what to share and what not to. I still need a friend though. One of her daughters is in Ps class, the other in going through her own stuff. The talk was perfect. 

After all of that, I came home and we just cuddled. It was delightful. She held my hand and covered me in kisses. Inside my heart is crumbling. Today was such a positive day, I know they aren't all like this. I'm taking today as a win.