I can't say it was out of nowhere. I saw it all coming. I mean, I was watching for a bit. When it comes to fruition, it really stings though. I can't imagine how she feels though and what's driving her to do this.
My gorgeous, stunning amazing, twelve year old has an eating disorder. She's still in denial, though the doctors disagree. We can't discuss some things with her, possible triggers, as we could "lose her" or "push her away". I understand this, yet I want to shake her and scream. From reading I get the logistical why and how. As her mom I can't even wrap my head around it.
On our side, we have amazing resources, support, amazing doctors and we are getting her help young.
Truth? I'm scared. I love her more than anything in the world. I want to help her in anyway I can.
I hope to update and get it all out here, while respecting her privacy.
3 comments:
When you're awake late at night filled with doubts and unease at your lack of control, know that you're doing everything right. And there's little to nothing you could have done to stop this. I suspect that your flailing at lack of control is a trait she shares. This was here way of keeping steady. With the help you're getting her, she'll learn how to cope in healthy ways.
Breathe. Soon you can hug her after you have a talk with her. But it's important to just hug her now. For no reason at all.
it's control. my friend growing up was anorexic quite severely and she has serious ocd that plays into it. this one thing they can obsess over and control completely. i just want to come over and give you a big hug and a shoulder to cry on.
You're scared because you should be, and because you're a good mother. You all are on my mind.
Love,
Jun
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