You can feel the punishment, but you can't commit the sin
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No one, no one, no one ever is to blame
It's less than two hours to her appointment. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I've started and stopped this so many times. I'm feeling like I can't get all my feelings out, maybe I can't understand all of them clearly.
I want to fix it.
I want to make her eat.
I don't want to break her.
I don't want to hurt her.
I don't want to have created this.
I have rational fears, yet I know that this is hear thing. Does this make sense?
I just don't want her to hate me.
ps- a few asked on another post (a friend posted about this since she's awesome) and through friends how to DM or contact me personally. Leave your contact info and I will add you on twitter. Thanks.
1 comment:
As to your wants I can only say that only she can fix it and only she can make herself eat. You will not break her because you're doing the right thing. You're un-breaking her actually. You will not hurt her even if on the surface and short-term it feels like you're hurting her.
Beating this will be pinpointing when it started, and piece together what started.
Your fear of perhaps having created this may be true. It may not be true. You are a good woman and a good mother. Without fears there would be no her :)
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